General Thoughts

Sandra is so smart. I hate her. And I really like her. And I wanna punch her. But I wanna work with her. It's absolutely sick. Can Ember win HOH and nominate her?? Thnx.

I should have nominated NTW & Kim together I'm sick. NTW getting drawn for Veto was THE worst case scenario. I'm going to have to GUN for veto. Unless I can throw to Ember, I know home girl SHOULD want a fucking win, and she can easily just be like "I wanted to respect the HOH!" (just like Sandra said she'll do), so that would be ideal.

Order in which I want people to win Veto:
1. Ember
2. Sandra
3. Steve
4. Jerry
5. Kim
6. NTW

If Jerry wins it's not horrible, I just put up NTW, no sweat. Even Kim winning isn't the END of the world. But NTW winning is literally the worst thing that could ever happen to me Here's to hoping she flops!

Do I even want Jerry to stay this week? Like? I am lowkey campaigning for him to stay but in reality.... no matter what happens this week, I'm literally going to be in a fine spot lmfao. Hm.

Eat hot chip? Is that a US saying?

Nvm it's a song

Arisa Cox wrote:

Nvm it's a song

it is?? i was talkin the tumblr days skjnfksf

I'm going to fucking kill mysefl

I fucking suck at everything, useless piece of shit can't win when I NEED to but can win when I DONT fucking need to. Bad gameplay. Pure shit. Wanna die. Fuck NTW. Fuck Kim. FUCK me. I'm fucked.

I still stan

Batgirl wrote:

I still stan

aw <3

still gonna kms !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but ty <333

I stan too, always & forever

i think jenn left some of her essence here when she left because i am going psychotic

You're passionate, you don't play to lose. I know I bug you about it, but you know I admire your drive & you're an impressive player. I don't agree your game is shit this season

Tony kinda spilled!

I feel like everyone is annoyed at me this week, and honestly, they are more than valid. This was a really bad HOH reign. Like really bad. I took that Veto loss hard. Ofc Negasonic got drawn AND won to take down my target after spreading she was my target.......... Yeah.

I'm upset, but we move on! I've had a long night, but it's been filled with more good than bad (irl <3), even if this game is a shit show for me. Again, sloppiest I've ever played, and I stand by that.

Mistake One: Not throwing to Ember. She would have nominated Jerry/Some Bitch and it would have been fine. I wanted her to win and have to be bloodier without the safe option of Jerry, but beggars can't be choosers, bitch! I should have let her win! I really did stall but she was so fucking slow like????? It would've been weird if I NEVER sent.... Whatever. Can't stand her. And she ofc wanted Jerry to go badly, but I bet she caved to vote majority. YAWN! (Kidding, I would do the same).

Sam also really wanted Jerry out. Makes sense. Jerry said Ember/Sam noms! Max wanted him to stay though, which is interesting, because Jerry said he would use him as renom... but I also didn't tell Max about that. I also didn't tell Sandra that it was Jerry who threw her utb, so I hope that speaks volumes for Jerry.

I really DO think I can move forward one week with Jerry. I really do. Maybe I'm delusional, but for this vote, Tony HAD to be the one to go. It's not ideal. Kim/NTW want me dead methinks. But if Jerry doesn't, at least I have SOME coverage. I just really hope we get a notes comp next so I can give the answers to Ember or Sam. Even Max. Movie should be coming up too, so gonna take advantage of that off day for sure. We need to keep getting some power. We need safety more than anything. Then I can throw and use a power to stay safe another week. Least I'm rich!

Is my game complete trash? I guess it's not.... THAT horrible.... ummm I keep it exciting I guess?? Jk it's in the shitter. When probability is on my side (like in veto picks! or in the veto WINNEr) I fail. When probability is not on my side? U can imagine it's even worse luck.

This is very back-against-the-wall gameplay from me, and I'm not fond of it. I don't feel I am exerting that much control, but socially, I am trying to make amends here and there and foster trust with most of the house. Tony is right, I am very aligned. But I think I am the right amount of aligned. If anyone else had won veto, NO ONE would be saying I'm over aligned. So it goes.

Either way, I will have to keep adapting and doing my best. I will keep on Jerry. I'm like LOOK I fought for u, here are the whores who wanted u out, and I did NOT tell Max NOR Sandra about what u said bestie! Stick to ur promise xoxo!!! We shall see if he does. Or if he gets the chance to. If he's up, I'm ok sending him out. Not over Kim or NTW though. NTW is my next target, call me crazy, but she is 100% going to target me, and tbh, she is the most competent person to do it I'd say. She's good. I SHOULD HAVE NOMINATED HER NEXT TO KIM I REALLY NEEDED A FEW MORE MINUTES TO THINK I STARTED TYPING UP A NOM SPEECH FOR HER BUT RAN OUT OF TIME.

Anyway, goodight loves! What a NIGHT (irl and in game!).

<3

Negasonic Teenage Warhead wrote:

He was telling me before the veto that one of us would have been the replacement nominee and that he was worried. Then after the renom he got upset with me because he says I’m the reason he is up there based on what you told him. Steve I haven’t done anything to you do you trust me? You can be honest. I’d rather hear an honest answer than a PC answer and we can still work it out

OF COURSE I DON'T TRUST U KHSDBFKHSDFBKAJF JOHN I'M GOING TO SMACK U AND UR SAD FACE EMOJI IN THE HEAD