Diary Room entries

So many thoughts are racing through my head, so I don't even really know where to start but...
Okay, so I made some progress today, or at least I'd like to think I did, at least...
I finally talked solid (ish) game with Cruella and deepened my relationship with her
Talked more with Tony (I wanna make a final 2 deal with him eventually)
More with Kim (absolutely obsessed with her)
Somehow got into an alliance with Matt Debbie Cruella!!! A 4 person alliance
Not sure how solid that will be but it's a start for sure
The house dynamics are still unclear but it's still week 1

(This qualifies me for 5 BBQ dollars)

Well, I've definitely made some progress today but it was a relatively peaceful day!
I'm gonna start with the biggest thing that happened today
I got included in an alliance with 7 other people called eight crazy knights lmao
The fact that I managed to be in an alliance with the first two HOHs is lucky AF lol
Thank god I befriended both Debbie and Tony
Debbie and I bonded over drag race, and Tony was all about talking game with me from the beginning
Also I love that Kim and I are officially in an alliance now
In the past, I've found myself in situations where I had a really good personal relationship with people but not very good game ones with the same people
Juicy, Joe, Keith... This is only from season 1, bu just to name a few
And that happens mostly because we end up in different alliances and end up on opposite sides
With Kim, I wanted to make sure that wasn't happening and she has no idea I pushed for us to be in an alliance together!

Today was a relatively slow day, not much happened to be honest but I'm still gonna have to do this...
Doing well in the power of veto comp but not winning was perfect for my game optically!
I could've won more BBQ money had I won the comp, but coming in 2nd still qualifies me for the BBQ nightclub, so that's still something
Another alliance was formed... And the name... GURRRRRL
I'm having war flashbacks from "Lucky 7" 
Whoever came up with that name clearly has not seen BBQ1 lmao
Our "Lucky 7" was not the luckiest after all, let's hope this one doesn't have the same fate.
I also secured an alliance with Kim and Peach, I think and Tony and I discussed making an alliance with Steve, Jules and Ember. Keeping our options open is great, I think.

Whew, today has been a rather stressful day for me...
First of all, I was sleep-deprived so that wasn't good.
I think it's good that Negasonic won one of the HOHs because it helps solidify the eight crazy knights.
With that said, I'm unfortunately losing a potential ally in Peach this week.
As inactive/slow to respond as she was, I truly did not wanna see her leave this early and I feel powerless just letting her go like this, but I don't wanna make waves this early in the game, I need to just let it be.
As for Cosmo, we did not have a relationship so I do not care, it is not a loss for me.
I don't know if this double HOH twist will continue next week, but if it does, we're almost certainly seeing some actual blood spilled.

Side note: Is Cruella actually starting to open up to me a little or is it just me?
Despite Tony's distaste for her, I actually like her and wanna work with her.
But I just don't know where her allegiances lie, that's the thing.
Either way, she's an intriguing player and I wanna figure her out.

Also, I feel that Tony's game interests and my game interests aren't perfectly aligned with each other.
I'm really hoping that won't be a problem down the line.

Not a lot happened today...
I mean people weren't really online and I didn't really get to have actual conversations with people.
I have a couple of things I need to get off my chest...
Is ember like ignoring me or is she kinda inactive in general?
I literally haven't talked to her in a couple of days now.

Also, I really do not get Cruella.
She says she wants me to take me to the end and then leaves me on read?
With her, it's kinda I say one wrong thing and suddenly she's lost interest in me or something
I'm really confused as to how I'm supposed to feel about her and where we actually stand

Maybe I'm overthinking things, but it kinda seems like I don't have enough solid game relationships to make it past early-jury?
Is that because the game hasn't really started? Or has my game simply not been strong enough?
Also, Tony's game interests and mine not aligning, like I mentioned yesterday is a huge concern moving forward.
I'm not getting good vibes for some reason and it is never good when that happens, I can tell something is wrong.
Maybe it's just me being paranoid, I tend to overthink.

To those of you who are wondering why I voted to evict Jules over Nagisa even tho I trust Jules more than Nagisa...
A couple of reasons.

1. If Nagisa has too many votes to evict, Jerry will be suspicious of people he's in alliances with, and that includes me. I don't want him to self-implode. He's not the most careful player.
2. Although I feel very confident Jules is NOT targeting me anytime soon, she is targeting Jerry and Webkinz, and those are people I could use to further myself in the game. In the future, when there's a move I don't wanna make myself, Jerry and Webkinz could potentially do my dirty work for me. Jerry and Webkinz are my numbers and I don't wanna risk losing them.
3. Nagisa is semi-inactive and I don't think she's very good at comps from what I've seen. Jules on the other hand, is pretty good. Although I trust Nagisa less than I trust Jules, Nagisa is less likely to win an HOH, therefore automatically less likely to take out someone I'm aligned with.
4. As many have brought up, if Jules stays, that's one person who cannot be nominated for three weeks, automatically increasing the likelihood of me or one of my allies going up on the block.
5. If Jules goes, since I told her and her allies (Steve, Ember, Dorothy) that I was voting to keep her, they will run to me, and I'll be safe with them for a while without the threat of Jerry/Webkinz being targeted by Jules.

Today was a very interesting day...

Jules' speech absolutely had me shook, of course.
I wasn't hurt or mad or anything, what she said about me wasn't even that harsh, especially compared to what she said to some of the other houseguests.
If I were to try to be optimistic though, I would say, what she said about me might decrease the target on my back a little bit.
I might use this perception to my advantage and try to play up the meek "goat" role a little bit.
And like I said to Cruella, it did bring The Called Out closer to each other, so that's good.

I am sad Webkinz is on the block though.
I really don't want them to leave.

HOLY SHIT.
I think I just figured out why Steve used the POV on Webkinz over Matt.
So... This is just my theory, but...
I'm pretty sure Ted proposed to Steve that if Steve uses the POV on Webkinz, he's putting up Nagisa who Steve wants out since Steve voted to evict Nagisa last round.
And I think he told Steve like "My renom would be Nagisa, who you want out. However, don't use it on Matt. Matt is well-connected but Webkinz is inactive. If you use the POV on Matt, Webkinz might go home over Nagisa. If you want Nagisa out, use it on Webkinz even if you have no relationship with him."
Holy shit, Ted is so fucking smart. I can't believe Steve fell for it tho.

I'm investing more in Cruella right now.
It doesn't mean I'm putting all my eggs in one basket, I still have Tony and Kim, but I feel like attaching myself to Cruella and acting as her sidekick who does whatever she wants will get me far.
I'm not super close to Ted, Sandra, or Debbie, and I'm not super confident in Tony and Kim's ability to win comps.
So I need someone like Cruella on my side. Someone who will feed me info, win comps for me, and protect me as long as I do whatever they want me to do.
I will play up the loyal goat role and get myself to the final 2.
It's not the most respectable gameplay, but hey, whatever works.

PLZ NOT A PATRICK STAR TRIBUTE

Patrick Star's game:
Comps    
Social Game      
Strategy    
"Jury Management"          

Liza's game:
Comps        
Social game        
Strategy        
"Jury Management"    

I thought this season was gonna be like BBQ4 but it's resembling BBQ1 more LMFAO

If I win an HOH comp that's dedicated to Patrick...
The irony of that would be beyond hilarious... lmao

So... Today was definitely another peaceful day for me.
The HOH comp was unnecessarily hard.
I didn't really understand the instructions, and I struggled at the word search...
Thankfully Debbie pulled out a win for us so I didn't have to, but I'm starting to question my comp ability a little bit.
I think I'm the type of player who's only good at certain types of competitions lol
I am really glad 7th Heaven was made tho, it was necessary.
I never really wanted Jennifer in Eight Crazy Knights anyways, and her presence was what made me quiet in that room because I don't trust her.
And like I said to Tony, I was really annoyed that Debbie nominated Webkinz over someone like... Idk Max? Ember? Dorothy? Sam? Literally anyone else?
How Debbie can't see that Steve only used the POV on Webkinz so Nagisa would go up, is beyond me,
And I do trust Webkinz a lot. With that said, they're not someone I would risk my game for.
They don't have much power in this game, and if it comes down to it, although it would be bittersweet, I'm ready to say goodbye to them.
If the noms stay the same, I dread having to evict Steve and lying to him I'm keeping him, knowing damn well he's probably staying. That's not gonna be fun lol

Lmao Debbie scares me
She’s like the Regina George of this house